A little holiday | arayoflight's Blog
Saturday , Sunday , Monday and Tuesday Ive been at home because its a long weekend.
Some relaxation away from work was well needed.
I'm upset because I must go out to work on Wednesday to face the drama again.
Everytime I think about those 2 girls at work, I get a sick feeling in my gut. it completely turns me off to everything that I'm doing at that moment.
I think I am so intimidated by them... and to make it worse, I let them get the upper hand.
I dont want to stop working but at the same time I am not sure how best to handle this situation.I dont see this situation getting any better.
Sigh. life is so difficult at times.
I just wish I knew what I was good at. I just wish I knew what truly makes me happy
The only thing I can seem to control in my life is my physical body - I work out and the harder I work out, is the more it'll change. I like that I can control that much.
long ago it use to be the case where if i dont eat. I'll get skinny, but now its not about that any more.. but still the same concept.
I just control it in a healthy way.
which is good but at the same time feels like I've no control over anything going on in my life - and that feeling is the worst... I just wish I could take life by the horns and lead it to success.
but i can't :(
I'm losing and lost everything that matters to me and I feel like I'm nothing and no one, just a shell and empty inside, hollow and sad.
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