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Its the end of Yet another week
Israel is home . I was so glad to see him but I was afraid that I wouldnt have felt the same way about him before he left. My feelings were so strong for him....
Well we talked a little.. and he told me he missed me but I could tell right away that it wasnt the same,
my feelings for issy isnt as strong as it was.... my worst nightmare is coming true.
Yesterday i was over at his house and we ended up f-ukin eachother. but it was the most emotionless f-k i have ever felt with him.
sex with him was always great! now, its like any other..I've lost my attraction for him.
I could sit here and cry cos I want back what we used to have.
i feel more pain in my heart but i guess i'm ready to let go
it just wasnt meant to be.
Prior to this I havent had sex in 4 months since he left... so sex left me really sore afterwards.....
then later in the night he wanted to have sex again but after he tried. i was like no.. i cant cos i'm sore and its just going to hurt me , .... its like he doesnt even care about that,,, alll hes concerned about is getting some.
we argued about it for a while then he finally quit asking... we put back on our clothes and I ended up leaving shortly after.
i told him he was an A$$hole and that he didnt really care about me..
i apologised for calling him an A- hole before i left and hugged him
today i tried calling him cos i packed up some food for him to eat.. but his phone is off.
i suppose hes shutting me out..
i miss him , i miss the times we used to have but I guess its finally time to move on without him
i hate that this is happening to me. i hate not having him around in my life.
he was my best friend. i hate losing him
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